I thought it was all over. It would nv be. I would forever be in debt. Drowing in the guilt that you shove me into. I just wanna stop. But i cant and you know i wont. Maybe thats whats keeping you going

Hi. I have been trying to lose some weight because well, I am fat and getting fatter.

It seems like the old days whenever I play an old song I used to repeat so often in the past. I remember when boys were the least of our problems. Hang out used to be a daily routine. When MSN chat was still in use! (hahahaha) When we honestly stuck by one another no matter how bad the situation was. We were just brutally honest with our feelings. The talking sessions late at night. Sometimes I just miss it. Listening to the songs that we used to share, just realize how much I actually miss being young. On a lighter note, I dress better now. :D

I happened to notice guys who dont act as gentlemen. Sure, some girls want equal rights and shit but i dont believe certain stuff abt it uh. Like would girls wanna be caned if they were guilty of a certain crime? No. I dont think so. So i dont see the equality in it. Anyway back to my point, gentlemen. Are. Very. Hard. To. Find!!!! I see guys sitting on the benches and the girls had to sit on the floor because there werent any places left to sit! Ive seen girls pay for everything. Or the simple gestures of opening the door for a lady; Very hard to come across. What happen to ladies first? Or like doing something actually nice to a lady? Im not saying that there isnt any gentleman but the population of that sort of men is decreasing rapidly.

However, i am thankful that the guys i hang out with, are generally gentle. Haha not trying brag but ladies, some of these guys are single. Hahahaha

Right, so til then.

I just want someone to listen.

I always get a little paranoid when i see people (strangers, mostly) stare at me then suddenly just whisper into their friends ear. Like what? Is there something on my face, like a booger or something? Not to brag or something, strangers tend to stare at me, most of the time i catch them staring and are especially on my lOng journery to work. Most of the time i just ignore them thinking either i look hilarious dozing off or they are surprised/amazed someone could just sleep like that....

Always wondering whats people's first impression of me is.
So readers, go to my formspring to tell me more. If there is any. Hahaha
K goodnight

I love you but youve really gone too far.
I love you but whatever youre mad about, youve done it too.
I love you but i dont wanna have to go through all of these.
Why cant i just have the best of both worlds? Why cant i make my own decisions?
If you'd really cared, you should just be there to catch me when i fall again.
Instead of saying "i told you so"
I changed for the better to match your likes,
I support you throughout.
You tell me you wont change because its how you are.

Making me feel as though my thoughts arent important.
Great uh pms.

Why do i always feel you dont like giving me attention? Why do you prefer your friends?